jrw553

Its been a long time since I kept any kind of journal but I feel the need has arisen.  I'm glad this one won't be filled with tumultous personal drama like those from my adolescence (lets face it...I need to acknowledge that personal drama lasted well into my twenties) but this one, I am hoping, will be focused on intellectual and spiritual growth.

I feel like I am at a cross roads.  A point in which I go forward or remain stagnant.  And that fear keeps me treading water and stuck hitting greatness away from me.  When I say "greatness" I do not mean that I believe myself to be destined for great things any more than any other human being, using his or her full potential, is destined for great things.  I just think, a lot of us, get in the way of our own potential.  We distract ourselves, we talk ourselves out of it...we listen more to the voices that say, "No No No You cannot!" and hush the screaming inside telling us that we can.

I realized today that this is why I hate schools.  Schools spend so much time silencing the gifts in young people.

If I could do anything with my life - other than raise two wonderful children of my own - it would be to create a place and a group of people who help children hear that screaming in themselves...and then use it...

but where I live there seems to be no real innovation in schools and I am quickly becoming bored by a system so entrenched in nonsense it cannot (or will not) see how flawed it truly is.  No matter how much I do for individual children every day I cannot make the changes that I want.  I cannot overhaul a whole system.